Reflections on spiritual themes (and a few other things).

Tag: Repentance

Planned Repentance

Several years ago I met a man who was planning to repent. He’d been a Christian for years, but worked a job that prevented him from attending services virtually all the time. By and by he quit trying and fell away altogether. When I knew him he was awaiting settlement of a lawsuit. If he won the lawsuit, he’d receive a large settlement that would allow him to pursue a different job that would permit him to resume his relationship with the local church.

I asked him if he’d considered finding another line of work, and he said, “No. I’m going to see this through.” I asked if it occurred to him that he might die before his plans were realized, and he said, “That’s the chance I’ll just have to take.” He was planning, some day, to repent.

His version of repentance and Biblical repentance are two different things. When Peter urged his audience to “repent and be baptized” (Acts 2.38), he wasn’t addressing men and women who were in some vague way contemplating the remote possibility of a commitment of some sort in the indeterminate future. They saw the urgency of the crisis and begged, “What shall we do?” (v. 37) On that day 3,000 obeyed Jesus as Lord. They didn’t plan to repent; they responded according to their convictions and the need of the moment.

The repentance of the Corinthians was marked by earnestness, vindication, fear, longing, and zeal (2 Corinthians 8.11). They had wronged a fellow Christian and were anxious to make the necessary corrections, to prove themselves “innocent in the matter.” Theirs wasn’t “the sorrow of the world” that “produces death”, but “sorrow according to the will of God” that produced “repentance without regret.” They could no more delay their repentance than they could delay their breathing.

When John the Baptist preached repentance, his audiences demanded, “What shall we do?”(Luke 3.10, 12, 14). Luke’s account tells us that they came to him and repeatedly asked (v. 10-14). They wanted to know how to fix their spiritual breakdown. They were serious about solving the problem of sin in their lives. Repentance was urgent enough that they couldn’t stop thinking about it.

The counterpoint to these examples of true repentance is Felix, the Roman procurator of Judea. When Paul appeared before Felix and his wife Drusilla, he took aim at Felix’s self-serving, wicked heart when he spoke of “righteousness, self-control, and the judgment to come.” (Acts 24.25) Paul’s powerful message brought Felix to the brink of repentance. Felix held in his hands the keys to the kingdom, but, instead, closed the door. He planned to repent (v. 25), and continued to plan for another two years (v. 27). After this, he was recalled to Rome, where he died soon afterward. I suspect he was still planning to repent.

The problem with planned repentance is NOT that our plans may not work out the way we intend. That’s true enough. You might plan to repent in September, but die in August. You may plan to repent when you retire, but never get around to retiring. You may plan to repent “someday” – but when “someday” arrives, you’ll likely be just as indifferent as you are now.

No, the real problem with planned repentance is that we put our relationship to God on our own terms, not on his. Planned repentance is nothing more than excuse-making for the sake of disobedience: “Lord, I’ll repent, but first let me…” Our Lord’s response is plain: “If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow me” (Luke 9.23). Whatever planned repentance may be, it is certainly not what Jesus wants.

Are you planning to repent? Can you so easily undo months or years of neglect, indifference, or rebellion? Why will some other time, some other place, or some other circumstance will be better than today? Do you think that continuing in habitual sin will make repentance easier? 

Now is the time to repent!

Feel the Heat

“What dreadful hot weather we have! It keeps me in a continual state of inelegance.” (Jane Austen)

In case you haven’t noticed, it’s hot. As Austen said, inelegantly hot. It’s so hot that hens are laying hard boiled eggs and birds are using potholders to handle worms.

However, like any of our experiences, we can use this to learn about our relationship to God.

I want to consider one verse from Psalm 32. It’s one of two psalms (32 and 51) written after David admitted to his adultery with Bathsheba. In the opening verses he talks about the forgiveness of his transgression; the covering of his sin; his iniquity not being credited to him.

Then in verses 3 and 4, he remembers the effects of sin before his confession: His body wasted away; he groaned all day long. Then verse 4 says, “For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me; My vitality was drained away as with the fever heat of summer.”

David is talking about the burden of sin. Sin felt like carrying a heavy load on a hot, sweltering day. Spiritually, he felt like he was melting away in summer. David was saying that sin felt awful.

But throughout the rest of the psalm, he talks about how wonderful forgiveness felt. It was a condition of blessing; he sang songs of deliverance; he rejoiced; he shouted for joy.

Often the Bible treats sin in a clinical way. It sometimes describes the most heinous sins with no expression of emotion. Or, as in Romans and Galatians, it uses legal or accounting terminology to describe how God has forgiven us in Christ. What’s unique about Psalm 32 is that it spends most of its time talking about the emotional side of sin and forgiveness. Sin should make us feel awful while forgiveness should feel awesome. God has made us so that our consciences convulse at sin and delight in righteousness.

I hope you’re surviving this spell of hot weather. Even more, I hope is that the heat will remind all of us of the burden of sin. Most of all, I pray that each of us will experience the refreshment of divine forgiveness. That’s something to really feel good about.